At a point of time, I was going to live and feel the life,
That point of life, I wanted to create happiness in time,
happiness and time! seems only in my mind,
my senses don’t feel right, from those times.
My times and life doesn’t seems right from the moments,
when I was watching my happiness fading away from my sight,
It was the moment when I realize there are tons of things to make me feel dead,
even when I am alive.
My realization, my thinking is not giving me any hopes,
It’s ruining my time and my life.
My brains was the biggest enemy of my life,
which was poking me and bringing my life to a dead end.
My thinking was a curse, the more I think, the more I think to destroy myself,
thinking was my biggest enemy,
my life was revolving around few things, me, my mind, depression, thinking to be happy
and all me in those times.
Life of lies, life of pain was unbearable to me and my mind,
every breath I took give me more pain,
every second I look make me feel I am numb,
what would be the solution of these all?
I realize, I was not the only one suffering form all the pain and bad times,
thinking the solution, only give me more dead knots,
until my love inside, told me to feel the life,
discussion the pain and sorrow with my mom and dad,
given the strength to defeat the dead end of my life.
The strength of love was bigger,
the tear from my mom eyes, clear the dark dust from my mind,
strength of my dad thoughts, hit my pain and depression with a bright light,
I was clearing all the pain and dead knots form my side.
Finally, I realize the happiness and the strength in my family and love ones can defeat all the bad times in my life,
I just need to say, family I am not good, I am going through a tough time.
That all it take to kill your fears and pain from inside.