Am I Depressed! Am I?

Am I Depressed! Am I

Am I Depressed?

Depression doesn’t come knocking your doors.

In simple words, depression is a very unusual feeling of sadness, loneliness, mental pain, numb, pretending to be happy, deep sorrow, sleepless nights, tensed days etc.

Depression is a big word, and usually in the present generation almost everyone is taking this word as their own family member, because if you are sad, we call the situation, that we are depressed, if we loosed somewhere in some contest or sports we call that situation “I am going to be depressed” this is happening now a days. Not everyone face depression, not everyone falls under depression category,

what is depression and who falls under this category?

For getting this answer you really need to know, What depression is, Its types, and do you really fall under depression?

For all this answers please follow this article DEPRESSION “The Vandal”

We really don’t know if we are depressed or not, we assume we are depressed but we are not! we are just sad about our loss in something, we are sad or in sorrow for some incident. Situation like these don’t falls under depression.

How can you define depression and how it affect our life?

Depression is like:

Human ——> living——> Negativity, negative thoughts (last for long) ——> continues—————> sadness–sorrow–loneliness–pain–emotional disturbance–mental pain————>suicidal attempts—–self harm——> Alone—->pain—–>cry—–>Human.

There is no exact scenario or a exact situation when a person is called to be depressed but there are like cases and situations when you can call a person depressed.

for example: if you have faced the following situation in your life.

  • Loneliness

    • Depression is a stage in a person life when he/she  find him/herself alone and separated from this world. When a person is not having enough trust in other and things other people won’t understand his/her feelings and they slowly get separated from the world.
      • Here are some symptoms of loneliness:
        • Loss in friendships
        • fights with family
        • Showing less or no interest in talking to anyone
        • Fear to face people
        • Feeling of being disappears from this world, pain of being born
        • Low self-esteem
  • Loss of Interest

    • The afflicted person can even lose interest in their spouse or children, family, friends, or anyone who is related to that person.
    • Loss on interest from work, loss of interest to eat, loss of interest to talk to anyone.
    • Even loss of interest to live in this world
  • Drugs and alcohol consumption

    • Generally people figure it out that consumption of drug and alcohol can help them to heal their pain, to heal them or to take away form the world of pain. To get separated form this world people start getting into more habits, start getting more involved into these habits. Its like they want to run out of these situations and they just want to be free from this world. Due to all these reason they start and increase the bad habits.
  • Imbalance behavior changes

    • Depression, sadness, mental pain have a bad impact on human brain, due to imbalance of the chemicals in brain, there is a very unusual changes in the brains of the human being, where a human being go through mood swings, sudden change in mood, sudden feeling of crying, sudden feeling of running out, sleeping etc. These are all the reason of chemical change in a human brain.
  • Loss in appetite

    • It is very common for any person who is sad or depressed that he or she is not feeling to eat, there is a change in appetite, there is a total change in this mood to eat, he /she don’t feel like to eat, its like hunger is his best friend. Food is like less interested to a person when he/she is affected by depression.
  • Fatigue/Extreme tiredness

    • Depression affect the overall life of a person, in which a person feel fatigue, tired and feeling of sleep any time in day or night. What ever a person do in this period time makes him feel less interested and more tiring.
  • Sleep Problems

    • Sleep be like the best friend of a depressed person, actually sleeping keep him/her away from the outside world due to this a person feels like sleeping all the time.
  • Self Harm

    • Depression urges us to take more pain, even suicidal attempts. These feeling urges because we want to go way from this world, we want to feel free form this pain, this is the reason we want to die this is the reason we want to feel more pain.

All the above scenarios are related to depression but all the above are not the exact situations when you can judge a person is depressed or not.

Depression last for months and years and if you really find yourself depressed form year and facing the above scenarios, then please take medical help or psychiatrist help. Because your life is precious and your life derives many people live.

Before taking any action in your life think about the person closely attached to your life.

How to deal depression?

Figuring it out you are depressed or not is difficult, but if you even feel and think you might be depressed you can do the following things to heal yourself and kick out depression from your life.

  1. Your family is what you need!
    1. Talk to your family, talk to the person who understand you the most.
    2. Talk to your mom, dad and try to tell them what you are facing, its not the point of fear that they will not understand you, THEY WILL UNDERSTAND YOU, they are yours only since you was born. May be they take time to understand you but they will understand you.
    3. choose your cousin as your friend and try to explain your situation.
    4. Find the right person to guide you in your situation.Life
  2. A friend is in need a friend indeed, go back to your best friend, talk to your best friends, hang out with them, they to tell your situation and its is sure they will understand your life and your situation. You never know the result if you are not stepping forward for it.


3. Your Passion, your love your work, this is difficult to do when you are depressed but its success rate is high to defeat depression in your life, when you are engage with your life, engage with your time, engage with your work that time you don’t need anything or no other thought comes in your mind apart from your work.

run your life

4. Start remember your remembering your life, start realizing your life when you were happy living your life, see yourself in mirror and compare your present with your past when you were happy and having the sprite to live your life. Its never to late to start now.



5. Start doing exercises and yoga or listen to music, keep yourself clean, eat healthy keep yourself surrounded by positivity.

yoga or music

6. Ask for a friend like us. SMILES ON FACES, FillingWords, with this sole motive we want to help everyone who are facing sadness, depression or any kind of mental and emotional pain.

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9 thoughts on “Am I Depressed! Am I?”

  1. Hi,

    I am a depression patient from past 8 years. I on medication and until last year I was feeling good. My depression started with a strange feeling of loneliness like lonely streets abandoned buildings or empty parking lot really makes me uncomfortable where there is no life. The feeling is so strong that it interrupts with my normal it gives me anxiety and sadness as if I am left alone in this world and I have no on to talk to. Any change like change in place or city makes me very uncomfortable too. I am not able to understand this feeling at all. Am depressed or this is some kind of phobia which is new in life. I really want to understand what I am going through.

    I would like to tell you more about me. I am 40yr old women, married and having a 9year old daughter and working too.

    Looking forward for your guidance.

    Niti K


  2. I have been feeling empty and depressed for way too long. It’s not that I didn’t try to be happy I did but even as a kid, before, I can remember not being able to mix along with other kids… It was just that I was different. They would play outside and I resorted to playing with the toys in my room. I used to be a really loving bubbly full of life kind of a kid according to my parents but I think I fizzled out as I grew up…. Mostly because I couldn’t get social with people, and because I saw too much pain too early like my dad nearly dying while trying to commit suicide , being thrown out of my own house by my grandparents , my mom abusing pills, my elder sister ignoring me, and my parents affairs. Things got sorted in my family now that I’m almost 21 and stay at a hostel in college but I feel empty. I have been feeling empty for nearly 5 years now. I used to practice self harm because I couldn’t take the pain but I realised that no one gave a shit and I only hurt myself and left ugly permanent scars in the process. I have been unable to trust people or make friends even in college… I just don’t want to be hurt by others anymore I would rather live alone than be hurt by others. I always thought as a kid I might find some prince charming in college but here I realised I’m not ever going to get lucky in love. I realised that for some reason guys see me as a girl that they can use for fun u know use like a slut and not a girlfriend ( although heck I don’t even know how to flirt) and I don’t understand why….no matter how many times I ask myself, fortunately I’m not that needy and I have always rejected them.. . But as a result I’m single and I haven’t been kissed yet… And I’m 21.Yup.but I have been molested by some douche bags. I’m forever anxious in social situations and go numb when crisis strikes ( like my trainer telling me Im gonna fail) . I never cry in college no matter how bad the situation or the insults are but I cry when I’m alone. Usually people insult me and walk over me and I take it low because I don’t want trouble … I don’t get why they do that…. I never treat anyone like that … The only time I get mad in these situations is when they try to insult my family or fail me by taking credit of my hard work. Well then… That’s the time the evil side of me comes out… I feel like a volcano and I FUCK their cases up… I usually make the other person who hurt me literally cry then . Always . I feel surprised at my own shrewd plotting mind, anger and evilness at that time. I used to love creating art and it was amongst the only things ( well other than chocolate) that gave me some happiness and meaning but ever since I came to art school I have not created any of my kind of art in 3 years just trying to pass every college assignment because the college is fucking expensive as my parents always remind me. I have gotten out of campus less than ten times in a year now because this place is in the middle of nowhere and going anywhere by cab is expensive and now I feel like a prisoner. And the result? I might just fail my 3rd year, I hate what I do ,I have zero self esteem left to the point my juniors walk over me and I’m dead as an artist …the only part of me that felt alive after the rest of me had died long back. I cannot tell my parents I might fail, I feel like a loser… Hell, I AM a loser,I want to be with people but I can’t bear to be around them, I wish I could fall in love but I know this is not my time… maybe il be alone forever… even attraction is a social art I guess….I want to kill myself nearly daily but can’t because things are finally falling in place for my family after so many years of pain and I don’t want to ruin that . Its not like I haven’t tried in life , I have, I was class prez on student vote in junior college/ higher secondary for 2 years, I took part in all sports even though I was no good at anything other than swimming and karate, I acted in plays, I even came on local TV and newspapers a couple of times like for a quiz and dance and singing competitions. I tried at life . I was good at some things I did. Just never good enough for my mother and my family . I always seem to mess up at the end to the point my dad called me bad luck once. I tried ok? I just can’t seem to get anything right. I mess up as an overachiever and I mess up as a nobody. I feel like a robot now. I dunno I can’t kill myself , I dunno what to do with my life….and I might fail college.

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  3. I feel so lonely from my childhood .I sometimes don’t trust people if they can’t make out time for me n give any reason for not attending me. At that point I feel like they don’t want to come along n r lying with me. I want to go out stay happy but when something or someone says anything or don’t understand me I feel like unwanted and no one really understans me or try to understand WT I meant to say. I shout at my grandparents and my close frmds for every small thing.i like it wen I’m surrounded by people who care for me like my close frmds rather than staying at home . I had tried gng for counseling but it didn’t wrk rather as she was saying I ahud only understand n adjust as per my grandparents needs n age.i stay with them isnce ages like wen I was 3 yr now I’m 23yr my mother has expired when I was 2.5 yr old no connection with my father .I had tried committing suicide twice in my life once when I was a 6 yr old kid I jus ran off from home but somehow my grandparents found me.i always want a family time n family feel in my life n for second tym wen my grandpa scolded me for not getting a medical seat Wich was 6 ys agon I even tried to slef harm. Evn im upset with my boyfriend behavior as he s always busy in his wrk. We r in long distance relationship fmr past 2 yrs. I feel like our relationship is fading cos of my anger n his misunderstanding.
    When ever I try sharing my issues with my grandparents he scolds me in retrun instead of consoling me. Sometimes he even tries to console me but he tells that I’m work n grandparents r rt. Then again it leads to an argument n we start fighting. N distance between us keeps increasing.i feel like staying alone rather than staying at my home fmr my childhood.i can’t stay at home more than 10 days it’s quite impossible for me n now it’s been 3 mths I’m at home cos of vacation. My family nvr gves me familiar time like how my fnrds get one visits me neither they let me go out to fnrds place more than once in a week. I jus stay in a room all day .wen ever I’m sick I feel more lonely as I expect the care fmr grandparents as my fnrds receive from their parents .I like them but they way of thinking Abt living life really irritates me.for them living is jus staying u der a roof n having all 3 melas in a day.they expect the same wit me but I don’t want that kind of life . If I stay so reserved I won’t have anyone support in my future.. non of my cousins r close to me cos of my family mentality. They r not that traditional Abt dressing but they feel like life shud b so simple like eatg relaxing at home watching TV that’s it.

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  4. After my delivery everything seems to have gone out of hand. Husband is trying his best to support me in all possible ways but I am feeling helpless that I am unable to be of any help. It’s been 15days…. Someday I do feel good but that last very short. I have no one with whom I can share my feelings. Husband do listen but can’t load him with my worries because he will end up worrying more. I know this phase will pass too but each days seems very difficult.

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